Here's my story.
It's pathetic really.
In 2005 I bought a ferrocement boat, although I have often easily convinced people that I won it as part of a Nigerian scam.
I 'retired' in 2007.
Moved from Japan (where I had been teaching English for 17 years) to Mexico, where the boat was.
On the first day in the yard, I fell in love.
Big damn duh.
I spent a year faffing around either in the boatyard or in the bay.
I returned to Japan because the man I had fallen in love with was 'busy' so I thought I'd pine and get paid, instead of pine in the bay and spend the cruising kitty.
By the way, I'm a beginner sailor and was a beginner in love.
In 2009, after a year in Japan, when I went out to socialise a total of 5 times and saved my money to the point of insanity, I had a messed up year of land travel in Asia(which I know like the back of my hand anyway, so what a waste!) and misery on a couch in the USA.
It's a long story and I'm going to make it so short that I won't even touch upon it.
Back in Mexico since last Christmas, I have taken the boat out 3 times since February.
I am pathetic.
The vessel works well now (it had some battery issues) and I hope to start sailing her lots and lots this coming season, now that it isn't so darned hot and the threat of hurricanes is abating.
The love is over, by the way. I really loved the man but I realised that I was sad and confused more often than being happy and clear about my life and the direction it was taking.
And I cannot afford to have a wishy washy direction, as I am quite challenged for funds and need to be careful with my money.
So where to now?
Do I go all out and find crew for the elusive Pacific crossing next spring?
Or do I cop out and go back to Japan for one more year?
These are rhetorical questions only I can ponder.
The point of this post, I guess, is that sailing away isn't easy, and I feel like a total loser for having got nowhere since last March, when I 'retired' for the second time.
By the way, I guess I've spent 5000 bucks on living expenses since last year.
The rest has gone on bills for my little Empire and unnecessary flights.